Life is a damned if I do and damned if I don’t situation. I am two margaritas down because I want to be on a Tuesday morning. It is 1:00 AM and I used to be planning my life meticulously by now. I used to always be thinking about how…

It’s here. The thing I’ve been fighting for about a week. After getting fired I wrote and wrote and wrote and tried to do the right things. But now it’s here. I know why it’s here too. I did everything right. I worked really hard. I hyper focused on my…

I love to say horrible things. I love to be really emotionally unstable and just shake the world up because everything feels fake to me. I used to try to harm myself in order to feel, now I just scream and yell in order to feel. But I feel awful…

I just hit 30. Tiktok is making me feel ancient. There are children who were born the year I graduated from college who I work with in clinical settings. My younger cousins in their 20’s have started calling me an OG. (Original Gangsta ish or something). I guess statistically I…

So I’m feeling pretty interesting. I’m challenging myself to write even when it hurts. I’m challenging myself to show up when I want to isolate and hide away and hiss like an angry possum. The angry possum girl within me says “who cares! No one cares about you anyway! You…

Think of it. You know what it is. It is the thing that you are currently doing. It can be a habit, it can be a career, it can be a choice. Whatever it is, insert it below and answer these questions for yourself if you dare. — Are you doing it to be seen? Are you doing it to hide? Are you doing it as a crutch? Are you doing it for followers? Are you doing it for society? Are you doing it to be hated? Are you doing it to be loved?

Just letting you know. Your therapist cries at night sometimes. Your therapist might see a therapist themselves. Your therapist messes up. Your therapist misses the mark. Your therapist is not your healer. Your therapist is not your savior. Your therapist does not have all the answers. Your therapist is not…

My teeth hurt. My dental insurance kicks in soon and I am going straight there once it does. I’m waiting for my financial aid hopefully it will get here soon. I also have developed some strange nerve like neck pain that had cropped up out of nowhere. I just got…

Im going to be on this for awhile so if you’ve read three other posts and incoherent ramblings on this topic, I totally understand if you want to ignore this one. However, if you are along for the ride on my saga of self discovery, healing, and screaming then buckle…