I was listening to Spotify on my morning existential crisis commute. I began listening to my usual black podcast where everyone talks about black culture and hot gossip but then, it just got really elitist and everyone started talking about going to the Met Gala and making a ton of…

So I took communion in my room on the first Sunday of the month. I basically drank a full bottle of wine and ate some crackers and cried into a pillow. — I took a bottle of two buck chuck because I’m too broke to buy real wine and got some crackers and broke them and cried. It was the most authentic experience ever to be honest. I used to take communion every Sunday at church. We would go to the pews…

Some tried and possibly true tips for letting go of the past from my limited experience with doing it. — For those following my medium journey, you will find many super meta entries about how I used to be an actor and all the many things I wish I had. However, lately, I’ve been learning that letting go of the past and embracing the present moment is the best possible…

Last Week I felt the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. I felt like I had a purpose and was one with the universe only to afterward feel like I was pulled in the undercurrent by that same universe and asked dark questions that I had no idea how to answer. — This week I saw my first client and I won’t tell you all anything because you know HIPPA and all that, but I can tell you how I felt. It was unlike anything I had ever felt before. I felt like Sherlock Holmes. Everything clicked and in a moment I…

Every day I’m attacked by All the negative thoughts that stop me from writing. So I thought I’d write them all here to see who can relate! — I can’t be a writer. I’m extremely emo and most days it all feels like a weird fad that I am doing and I’m going to wake up from. I’ve been writing now since the 4th grade and every day I wake up saying “nope” this ain’t it. But I…

It’s weird. I just want to believe in the depth of things going according to plan or being in God’s divine favor but I don’t think it’s true. — I’m beginning to think wanting what you want when you want it and how you want it is detrimental to one’s mental health. I think our obsession with wanting things is killing us. It makes me feel so sick when I obsess over all the things I want. I want…

There’s a hood saying that goes “won’t catch me slippin” Slipping means to be caught not on your P’s and Q’s your P’s and Q’ are your best first impression. — Being caught slipping means you’ve been caught out of your character. As a black person, this means you’re usually on top of things. Your black character usually should be ready to go because you know what is expected of you. Absolutely nothing. You have to be better than the best…

1) Now you get invited to the real group chat! You get your coworker's personal numbers and you get to send memes! People want to talk to you and aren’t talking shit about you behind your back! People get lunch for one another! You’re in on the inside joke! I…

You’ve had those days. Nothing was done at work. You were on the clock but your heart wasn’t in it. You spent more time watching cat videos than showing up fully for what you “need” to do. — If you’re a perfectionist like me, days like that scare you. They make you feel like a bad employee, with a bad work ethic, and a bad attitude, and someone that everyone hates, and the weakest link therefore a bad person. …