There’s a hood saying that goes “won’t catch me slippin” Slipping means to be caught not on your P’s and Q’s your P’s and Q’ are your best first impression. — Being caught slipping means you’ve been caught out of your character. As a black person, this means you’re usually on top of things. Your black character usually should be ready to go because you know what is expected of you. Absolutely nothing. You have to be better than the best…

1) Now you get invited to the real group chat! You get your coworker's personal numbers and you get to send memes! People want to talk to you and aren’t talking shit about you behind your back! People get lunch for one another! You’re in on the inside joke! I…

You’ve had those days. Nothing was done at work. You were on the clock but your heart wasn’t in it. You spent more time watching cat videos than showing up fully for what you “need” to do. — If you’re a perfectionist like me, days like that scare you. They make you feel like a bad employee, with a bad work ethic, and a bad attitude, and someone that everyone hates, and the weakest link therefore a bad person. You go into a spiral about needing to do…

This week is an upward pendulum. This feeling is wonderful, but it also sucks. — The roller coaster is going up. You’re normal suit is fitting well and you are super attentive and nothing is getting to you! You feel really grounded in your purpose and I know who you are! This week. This feeling is like going up on a rollercoaster. It’s really exciting…

I went to the basement of our psychiatry office building. The basement has been abandoned and untouched for years. It used to be a psych ward. I went down there and I could hear screaming. — The paneled floor and the terrifying fluorescent lights. The drawings of strange youth artwork of angels with mouths wide. The desks are made of wood and the chairs are neon green. I could hear the screams. Though they are no longer there I could hear the screams.

It’s another interesting level of the lizard crisis I am feeling. In this space I feel like a a weirdo in normy clothing. There is such a hatred for those who are severely mentally and I am one of them and I have a hatred for myself. It’s such a…

Toxoplasmosis is a parasitic disease and has been found, especially in cats. It creates flu-like symptoms, extreme nausea and crime. — This story may or may not be true. Names have been omitted to protect the innocent. Details have been distorted to keep anonymity. Still, this story may or may not be true. But more likely the case is that it is true with little sprinkles of pizazz. I love cats…

Oh, the horror of Tuesday. It’s not quite Monday but it’s kind of a sticking point of a new day. It’s the momentum builder where Wednesday is directly in the middle of it all but we still have so far to go on this second day of the week. — Turmoil Tuesday. I still don’t want to do this job. I’m writing this during my break because I’m feeling nervous and anxious. I cried all morning and made it here and I feel…okay. I’m nervous about diving into case management because I’ve heard horror stories. I’ve only managed programs but…

I don’t know how long I can fake the funk of wanting to do this work. — I went to my first day of work and it was fine. I had a fine time wearing the lizard suit known as a working human. I did a lot of social work-type things. I took good notes like a good note-taker. I spoke in my good negro voice not…